“My name is Martin M. I am 28 years old. I was born in a typical strict religious family. I realized however that I was and am anyhow different because I would be more attracted by guys than by girls. To divert this strong and inpulsive feeling, I decide to concentrate myself only on two things: school and sport.
Sometimes, other youngsters and my own siblings would mock at me saying that I am a female in a man’s body. This was the reason why I always tried to be inactive in front of others and “cold”, but it did not help me any further. I waited until the age of 25 to have my first sex because my family started questioning my manhood. I was not satisfied at all. Some weeks later, that is to say the 14 th of September 2013, I moved out of the family house and rent a room close to my campus. There I started meeting other guys like me and having fun and sex. Unfortunedly I had to hide myself because of my family and the situation in my country. Homosexuals are mistreated and sometimes beaten in the streets. I had the chance to live my sexual life with my first partner. We have our plans. He stood by me and supported me more than any other person. Even though I am now in Germany, I think of him every day. I hope, we will be together some day. I decide to travel to Germany to try to live my live and to be happy because I know that if my family happens to realise my sexual orientation, I will be banned. I just hope one day to be happy and to live my life. I am such a tender and loving person. Even if I am attracted by men it is not my fault. I was born like that and will die like that.. When I finish my doctorate degree in three years, I aim at moving into another country where people are more open to topics like this one. Please help me.”