A Note From Martin…

“My name is Martin M. I am 28 years old. I was born in a typical strict religious family. I realized however that I was and am anyhow different because I would be more attracted by guys than by girls. To divert this strong and inpulsive feeling, I decide to concentrate myself only on two things: school and sport.

Sometimes, other youngsters and my own siblings would mock at me saying that I am a female in a man’s body. This was the reason why I always tried to be inactive in front of others and “cold”, but it did not help me any further. I waited until the age of 25 to have my first sex because my family started questioning my manhood. I was not satisfied at all. Some weeks later, that is to say the 14 th of September 2013, I moved out of the family house and rent a room close to my campus. There I started meeting other guys like me and having fun and sex. Unfortunedly I had to hide myself because of my family and the situation in my country. Homosexuals are mistreated and sometimes beaten in the streets. I had the chance to live my sexual life with my first partner. We have our plans. He stood by me and supported me more than any other person. Even though I am now in Germany, I think of him every day. I hope, we will be together some day. I decide to travel to Germany to try to live my live and to be happy because I know that if my family happens to realise my sexual orientation, I will be banned. I just hope one day to be happy and to live my life. I am such a tender and loving person. Even if I am attracted by men it is not my fault. I was born like that and will die like that.. When I finish my doctorate degree in three years, I aim at moving into another country where people are more open to topics like this one. Please help me.”

5 comments

  1. Luke

    Martin, Your story is truly heartbreaking. However you have done the right thing in moving away from your family, even if this has meant leaving the guy you love behind. I am from the UK here you can be who you want to be. If you would like to keep in touch then I’d be happy to offer you moral support. I wish you all the very best for your future, be strong and brave my friend.

    • martin

      I am so happy that you guys are concerned about my situation and that you are willing to support me. It gives me such joy and strength not to give up. Thank you very much for your contribution. Of course, I will be glad to read from you.

  2. martin

    I am so happy that you guys are concerned about my situation and that you are willing to support me. It gives me such joy and strength not to give up. Thank you very much for your contribution. Of course, I will be glad to read from you.

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